Demi Lovato has reflected on the ongoing healing process after she said she was raped as a teenager.
Demi, who uses the pronouns she/they, shot to fame after appearing in several Disney Channel movies and TV shows throughout her teenage years.
From the age of 15, Demi scored huge roles in the hit series As the bell rings and sonny with a chanceand has also starred in several Disney Channel Original Movies, such as camp rock and Princess Protection Program.
But as Demi has discussed throughout their careers, their time at Disney was far from the positive experience some might have assumed. The actor said he suffers from eating disorders and substance abuse. Demi, now 30, said she was also raped in the late 2000s.
Although she didn’t reveal who the person was, Demi said it was someone else from the Disney world who “was never removed from the movie they were in” after having her raped.
“We were dating but I said, ‘Hey, it’s not going any further. I’m a virgin and I don’t want to lose him this way. And they didn’t care, they did it anyway. And I internalized it and I thought it was my fault, because I was still going in the bedroom with him. I always dated him,” Demi said.
“The southern Christian girl in me didn’t see it [as rape] because sex was not normalized as a child or in the South,” she added. “And, you know what, shit, I’m just going to say it: my #MeToo story is that I tell someone that someone did this to me, and they never had a trouble for that. They were never taken out of the movie they were in.
Now, during an appearance on the call her daddy podcast this week, Demi once again reflected on the harrowing experience.
Speaking to host Alex Cooper, Demi was asked about the healing process from such a traumatic incident.
“In your documentary Dance with the devil, you reveal that your virginity was taken away from you,” Alex said. “Yes,” Demi answered. “You were raped,” the host said, which Demi agreed to.
“I think in a way, time can heal wounds,” the singer said. “Maybe not all of them. The more time passes, the easier it is. »
“But there’s still a sadness, a deep sadness in me that someone took this away from me at such a young age,” they added.
Demi went on to say that because the person who raped her was also on Disney, it was that much harder for her to heal at the time.
“It was hard because that person was also there. Like, they were on Disney too,” she said. “And so seeing them around was hard and it really ruined my teenage years. went to seek help for this.
“It’s something I’ve been working on, but you know, I’ve had other traumas, and that pushes them to the side a bit, but there are times when I’m definitely going to cry and feel the pain. sadness,” they continued.
“And to be clear, like it’s nobody in Disney’s immediate circle. I’ve had people ask me questions like, “Was it that person or was it that person?” And it was like, ‘I don’t think it would be someone that we would guess, but they were friends with someone on set and they were coming back [all] time,” she added.
First noting that she developed an eating disorder aged 12 after being bullied by classmates who called her ‘fat’, Demi revealed that it was greatly exacerbated by her management who wanted her to look “thin”.
“There was someone who came on the scene. When they came on the scene, everything in my life was in control,” she told Alex.
“It became the control of my food. For someone recovering from an eating disorder, it’s so dangerous. It actually made my eating disorder worse. I became bulimic again,” she said.
“They didn’t let me have phones in my hotel room because they didn’t want me to call room service,” Demi continued, before adding that there was no no food available in his hotel rooms and that the team member had in fact put furniture outside. of his door to prevent him from potentially accessing it.
“I had no food in the hotel room, like snacks and the minibar. They didn’t want me to eat the snacks,” she said. “They put furniture outside my [hotel] door, so I couldn’t sneak in and eat if I wanted to. It was that level of control when it came to my food.
But after years of recovery in rehab, Demi has made it clear that they’ve “found” their voice and won’t let anyone treat them like that again.
“Now I have found my voice. No one will ever be able to do this to me again,” they said.
You can listen to Demi Lovato in full call her daddy podcast episode here.